I shared my plan to chronicle “My Journey” this month. That was vague. I know.
“My Journey” this month is (and has been) eventful as I prepare for the SCORRE Conference. The thought of attending this conference seemed insurmountable. But I wanted to go. I believe (and believed) something special is awaiting me. If only I could get my bottom in one of those seats.
By God’s grace and favor it is happening. I’m still in awe. And I was floating on Cloud 9 (wherever that is…) until they emailed our pre-conference survey.
All of the wind was knocked out of me. My heart started racing. I tried to take deep breathes but it didn’t help.
I share an office with my husband. While I huffed and puffed trying to slow my nerves, he asked “Are you okay?”
No! I wanted to scream. But how could I. I asked for this, prayed for it and even asked others to do the same.
What is wrong with me? I thought.
Plain and simple.
The “what ifs” flooded my mind. Minutes passed and I began to repeat:
[pullquote1 align=”center” variation=”teal” textColor=”#000000″]”But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” [Jeremiah 17:7-8][/pullquote1]
I continued until I could no longer hear my heart beating in my ears.
My mini-episode reminds me of what it means to live a life of audacious faith. My Spirit knows more than my mind can comprehend. Yet as I write this post, I don’t fully know the plan. By the grace of God I pray to make leaps and bounds until I know that I know that I know I’m pressing into all that God has for me.
It won’t be easy. I don’t require an easy path. But I pray for one made straight by God.
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